12 weeks

Well, I am 12 weeks pregnant as of today and am very grateful that the morning sickness and tiredness and all that yucky stuff are almost completely behind me. It's been about 2 months now since I found out I was pregnant and I am still a little bit in shock and a little bit in denial for the most part, which I think is kind of good, because when I start to think about the reality of it all, I get kind of overwhelmed.

We had honestly almost officially decided that our family was complete with 3, when I found out that I was pregnant. I got pregnant at a time I never should have been able to and the whole thing has been crazy timing wise, so we figure it was definitely meant to happen this way, especially given my history of so many miscarriages. I have already had an ultrasound and just heard the heartbeat last week...so far everything is going perfectly. I'm just trying to figure out exactly how I am going to manage it! Having Savannah and Paris so close together (16 months apart) was difficult but now that they are older, I love having them so close in age. Madison and this baby will be barely 15 months apart and while I'm sure it is going to be absolutely nuts with all these little children, I'm sure that these two will love having such a close buddy as they grow older as well. I feel like the jump to 3 kids has not been too bad, mostly because there is more than 3 years between Paris and Madison. The older two are old enough to be helpful and independent while I need to be taking care of the baby and they love playing with her which has been so nice. But even loading all of them in the car and going anywhere and working around nap schedules and preschool and school schedules and everything else has been a little bit nuts, and I can't even imagine leaving my house with all 4! Especially these days with Madison all over the place and getting into everything....yep, that partial denial thing is a good thing!

Even though I am a little freaked out right now, I am grateful for the opportunity I have to have another baby and am grateful to have all the children I have...even though a lot of times it is hard and exhausting, I wouldn't trade it for anything! So now we are just anxiously waiting for January so we can find out if we are going to be an all girl family or if Bubba will finally get a buddy around here!